Goodbye Daddy

redrose66 /  August 10, 2015 / Poems / Life Happens

Many Milestones Walked, Many Voices Talked.

Many Paths Crossed, Many Spirits Lost.

Many Places Traveled, Many Stories Unraveled.

Many Wives Bound, Many Young Around.

Many Years of Service taken in Stride, Many Americans taking Pride.

Many Lives Encountered, Many Hearts Shattered.

Many Smiles Cared, Many Memories Shared.

Many Times I mowed your lawn Up, Many Cups of Coffee & Donuts.

Many Hours of Computer Lessons, Many Celebrations of Special Occasions.

Many Times we raised our Glasses, Many Times we laughed our Asses.

Many Health Challenges, Many Caused Damages.

Many Cures were Searched, Many Hopes of more time on Earth.

Many Treatments Had, Many Days were Sad.

Many Years of Joy, Many Cells Destroyed.

Many Times I have Prayed., Many Times he was Brave.

Many will be Glad to Know, Many Pains have ceased to Show.

Many Words Unspoken, Many Hearts now Broken.

Many Pains Felt, Many Ways Dealt.

Many Prayers Spoken, Many Tears Approaching.

Many Years now gone Alarms, Many Angels with open Arms.

Many Thanks and Praises from Above, Many Visits from White Doves.

Many will cry because he’s Gone, Many will have to remain Strong.

Many just want to say Goodbye, Many will find it difficult to Try.

Many will be Sad, Many for Love they Had.

Many will feel Reprieved, Many through all this Grief.

 Many words I can never Say, Many will Know & Feel as I do Today.

Many when they Hear these last Words if I May?

“GOODBYE DADDY, I LOVE YOU, & I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN ONE DAY”!

Love, your youngest daughter,

 Josephine Carol (Force) Rojas

 IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY FATHER,

                            

PAUL LAWRENCE FORCE, SR

August 11, 1937 – July 31, 2015

77 Years 11 Months 20 Days

Sad But True

redrose66 / July 15, 2015 / Poems

Love is Genuine, Love True

Love is Suppose to be Forever,” I LOVE YOU”.

Unconditional without Tarnish,

Blemish, Without Diminish.

Understanding and Honesty

Truth and Clarity,

Sharing Lives under an umbrella of Sincerity.

Unbreakable Seal

Burst apart from an earlier Ordeal.

Feeling the heart Shatter

Love apparently doesn’t Matter.

With someone from the past there’s no Competition

Not even if there’s Superstition.

The love thought to have Bonding

Is nothing more than Fonding,

For the heart has been Taught

To block all that could be Harming.

No matter how hard she Tries

Whether they’re married or Nye,

The original love is the one that Survives.

It’s sad but True

As she always in her heart Knew,

His love for her is surface Steep

But the love for his first is forever Deep.

Copyright © 2015 by Josephine Rojas. All rights reserved.

I AM WHO I AM

redrose66 / July 8, 2015 / Family / Encouragement

 I am a mother of three beautiful children of whom I am very proud to share wonderful memories with and a step-mother of two shy children I rarely get the opportunity to share many memories with but remain hopeful.

 I am a Free-lance writer who has yet to publish a single book as of today but have ambition and patience to anticipate the proper opportunity to precede success in the near future. (hehe)

 I love my blog because it allows me the opportunity to write whatever I so choose and have no limitations yet feel free to be able to express myself and get some things out there for others to read so they can see that they’re not alone in the world and there are other people with the same issues and therefore there are solutions and positive outcomes available to each and every incident as long as you have a breath to breathe.

 I love children and enjoy spending time with my grandchildren as well as my great-nieces and nephews, when time allots, as we create crafts and laughs together.

 I enjoy making people laugh and seeing the joy in the eyes of all individuals I encounter whether they are geriatrics, middle aged, teenagers, school aged, toddlers, or babies I make no discrimination’s and that includes gender, race, and/or religion. I look at people as individuals and try to see where I can help. If I am unable to help I at least try to leave them with something positive to ponder on or say something silly to leave them with a smile on their faces.

 I have been known as the ‘life of the party’ when I arrive because I am very outgoing and a bit goofy with the way I express myself. I am sometimes a naughty joke teller and I can pop a shot or two and hold my own if you catch my drift.

 I have the type of personality that normally blends with others possibly due to the fact that I am one that listens first to try to get a better understanding of the other person prior to my immediate response plus I choose my words carefully as not to upset or step on someone’s toes. I often aim to please to try and comfort and empathize with the other person so I can better relate and understand them from their point of view and therefore helping me to keep an open mind. I ponder on things prior to my responses in order to get the response from them that makes me be able to assist in a positive way and un-offensive way. (At least that’s my goal).

 I have had some people in my life through the years try and tell me that I should feel a certain way or I should respond in a  specific way that I would never normally do, and if I didn’t then if something bad was to have happened as a result to my not doing things their way, then it’s my fault.

 For instance, recently I was instructed from one of my family members, (we’ll call them “A”) to tell another family member, (we’ll call them “B”) to cease from doing something that they had been doing for nearly their entire life. “A” said to me, “You need to ‘tell’ “B” to stop…” Then I was instructed that I was to lie to that same individual telling them that the doctor had instructed them to quit doing this specific task due to the potential harm it may cause. “A” said,” ‘Tell’ “B” the doctor said…” They insisted that if I refused to tell “B” and lie to “B”, something bad was definitely going to happen to “B”, thus if  “B” dies it’s going to be my fault because I refused to demand them to cease from doing such task plus I refused to lie to them about the then made up doctor’s instructions. I told “A” that I was not going to tell a grown adult set in their ways what to do with their life. Plus I was surely not going to lie to them about it. “A” continued to try and coerce me, with failure of course, as I continued to speak calmly yet I kept my composure. I told “A” that I would talk to “B” but I would not try to enforce, demand, nor lie to them. So “A” continued to say, “So you’re not going to ‘tell’ them to quit? And you’re not going to ‘tell’ them the doctor said to stop? Well I guess you don’t care if they live or die!”, but before I could respond, (click) they hung up the phone.

 I did discuss the topic with “B” briefly without getting them upset or trying not to step over the line as I brought up the topic, but they responded as I had anticipated by saying they are an adult and will do whatever, whenever they so choose and no matter what anyone else thinks or feels they will do as they please regardless. They went on to say they are responsible for their own actions and they’ve been doing it for years and don’t need a lecture from me or anyone else. (Therefore, relieving me of any guilt that was recently put on my shoulders that “A” informed me I would be responsible for).

 Prior to my departure with “B” I mentioned that I merely brought the topic up out of my concern for their well being and was looking out for their best interest and wasn’t trying to be bossy or intrusive, I was simply attempting to bring to their attention the concern I had and for them. I then advised them to please take extra precautions and to possibly think of an alternative like asking me when in need, as something to ponder on. I also let them know I loved them and was here for them if they needed to talk or needed anything. At first “A” was upset but I made sure to leave them with a smile plus an alternative.

  So did “A” change me? No, no they did not. It is not right for someone to come in to my life and try to change my mind, habits, try to coerce my thinking, or way of life. Thankfully I am headstrong and open-minded which enables me to read people to a point. Sometimes I just can’t read people because they are way out there in another dimension.

 Everyone’s different in their line of thinking. Some are selfish others generous. Some are fascists others callous. Some are magnanimous others dangerous. “To each their own”, is a saying I always keep in mind. We all have our own ways of thinking and doing things. We do not necessarily all agree with the decisions of all those around us, but it’s not up to one individual to make decisions for the world.

 I certainly do not need a dictator trying to guilt me into thinking, feeling, or doing things against my beliefs as I have a mind of my own. I am an independent minded individual with my own thoughts.

 Know this, I only try to help never to harm. I always look after everyone’s best interests, not their flaws. I offer assistance not interference. I try to be kind but I’m not blind!

 I like to think that I can make a difference in assisting people and making them smile. It’s difficult to be happy when you’re surrounded by negativity and heartache.

 It’s difficult to be happy around pain and discomfort but misery loves company. That is intended for those that are hurting and wanting others to feel their pain by feeling emotionally drained along with them which is a selfish act.

 When I’m in pain I want my husband to console me and be there to assist me in my time of need.  He usually is, bringing up my spirits not to mention my pillows, medications, meals, and ice cream…hehe. He is my supportive lifeline and the other side of my smile. He often reminds me to smile that even though I may be ill 90% of the time, that life is as beautiful as I and my smile.

 I love to be happy therefore enjoy being around people that are positive and have a good outlook on life not those that try and make me feel that the life I have is depressing or the decisions I make are bad because they don’t agree with theirs.

 I am who I am. You either accept me for who I am or find another person to hang around with because I am not a punching bag and I am not a dry erase board. You can not abuse me and you can not change me!

 I hope that I can make a difference in someone else’s life by letting them see that they are who they are and just because someone doesn’t accept you or the decisions you make doesn’t mean you’re a bad person and it doesn’t mean that blame is on your shoulders just because someone else makes a bad decision that you have no control over.

 I am who I am! You are who you are!

 Peace and love my friends!

Copyright © 2015 by Josephine Rojas. All rights reserved.

Release of Burden

redrose66 / July 2, 2015 / Poems

EYES MEET

FEELING HEAT

TENDER PASSION

DESIRES OF COMPASSION

LOVE BLOSSOMS

   BUTTERFLIES AWESOME

FLUTTERING NOURISHING

FLOWERS FLOURISHING

FLOATING PETALS

NATURE NESTLES

 WITH POLLENS OF SCENT

ATTRACTION OF TWO MEANT

THE BOND IS BOUND

WITH RINGS OF ROUND

YEARS OF JOY AND BONDING

UNEXPECTED ILLNESS SPAWNING

FINANCIAL CHALLENGES

HEALTH TO SALVAGE

CONSTANT DECLINE

WILL ALWAYS DEFINE

EMOTIONS HE ONCE HAD

ARE REPLACED WITH ONLY SAD

FEELINGS OF GUILT SHE HAS BEARED

KNOWING HER ILLNESS HAD WEARED

MENTIONS WITHOUT ANY SPECIFICS

SHE UNDERSTANDS HER POSITION

TO LIBERATE HIS HEART

HER EXISTANCE MUST SUBVERT

 THE BURDENS SHE BARED

ARE NO LONGER SHARED

THE MOMENT HAS ARRIVED

FOR SHE TOOK HER LIFE

ON THE TABLE BESIDE

WHERE HER BODY LIED

WAS A NOTE

SHE WROTE:

“OUR LOVE WAS TRUE

BUT I ALWAYS KNEW

THE DAY WOULD ARRIVE

SO I HAD TO ABIDE MY TIME

THE BURDEN I BARED

I WISHED NOT TO SHARE

BECAUSE TIME IS PRECIOUS

AND ALWAYS MOMENTOUS

I WANTED YOU TO REMEMBER

OUR LOVE TOGETHER

BEFORE THE UNWILLINGNESS

OF THE ILLNESS

PICTURE BUTTERFLIES

AND BIRDS AS THEY FLY BY

THOUGHTS OF WHEN

WE’RE TOGETHER AGAIN”

 

Copyright © 2015 by Josephine Rojas. All rights reserved.

Grandparents

redrose66 / June 23, 2015 / Family

 The stereotype grandparents are generally pictured as either elderly or in their late fifties early sixties and often even older, but that’s not always the case.

 Personally, I birthed my first child at the age of 17 and he fathered his first child at age of 24; therefore I became a Nana at the age of 42. So in considering this I still probably have a little more stamina than my mother did when she had me at the age of 27. Now at the age of 48 I have a total of three grandchildren, (and two step-grandchildren but they don’t know me).

 One thing I enjoy about being a grandparent is that the little bears look forward to seeing you after not having seen you in awhile and thus look for you when you’re not around.

Sometimes It May Be Wise To Put Down All Electronic Devices: Kids Need To Feel Loved At All Ages!

redrose66 / June 14, 2015 / Family / Encouragement

 It seems that everywhere you look someone is busy with their heads down in their little own world, regardless of where you go whether you’re walking, driving, watching a movie, or playing / watching a sporting event even if you stop and look around at the shopping malls, stores, and even restaurants the majority of the people are texting, listening to music, checking their e-mails, looking at social networking site, playing an application, internetting, or doing some sort of research on their cell phones, tablets, laptops or other networking  internet device.

 But where are their children during these social gatherings? Who’s minding them? Are the children getting the full attention they deserve? Are they working their own devices or is the family being sociable, interacting, and enjoying one another’s company? Some parents feel that if they take the children to public places that it’s enough on their part, but the parents may not have a clue what the child really feels about certain things, or if he’s having an issue with someone /something, if they are having a misunderstanding about something, or if they need help because there’s a lack of communication.

 Even at home the children are expected to be playing in their rooms, watching TV, or playing video games. The connection between child and parent has missing links leaving the child with less of an emotional attachment to the parent due to that void that’s been created. Where’s the fun creativity between the parents and child? The special quality bonding? That undivided attention that parents expect when they want a child’s attention? Respect goes both ways.

 Sometimes you see the children on these devices. There may be nothing wrong with that. Yes they’re quiet and not disturbing the adults, but at what cost?  Are they on them for a half hour, an hour, all day? Are they being monitored? The way I see it children have become less active, they have less patience, they tend to become more aggressive to other children due to the lack of social skills that isn’t being exercised because their too focused on their gaming devices, and less respectful with a limited amount of mannerism. Some of the games appear to be innocent but in actuality become “time robbers” taking away any potential quality time that could be better spent on quality family time , projects, outside activities, reading, learning to write or draw, or just plain ole kid fun playing chase, tag, climbing trees, even gardening or riding bikes.

I was at the park with my great nephew a couple weeks ago and noticed that the majority of the parents were on their cell phones doing whatever on them while the kiddos were out on the play area unsupervised. Now I understand that need to keep up with the latest this and new that, but the kids are not getting that bonding 101 with the family to be able to connect like they did when I grew up. It seems sad really.

 Even though I may not have had the best childhood,  I do have some fond memories of things that we as a family unit did that nobody can take away from me. For instance, when we were very young we all sang together while our parents played their guitars.  We would go to drive-in theaters and I would eat popcorn and fall asleep on the roof of our old green station wagon. We went swimming on base,at the school pool, and at Parker Park. A few times we went camping at Lake Mathis for the weekend. We took trips to Mexico and went shopping in Reynosa where my mother learned her Mexican Grito (yodel)  As teenagers we played tennis with my father on the tennis courts at Parker Park. We even went to Astroworld in Houston with some dear friends.

 Since my children were little tykes, I have always set aside a designated time (regardless of my schedule) that I rarely steer from because I hold it as a treasured time that I hold dear to my heart and that is my Family Night. That’s the night my husband, me, and my children all get the opportunity to sit and share a meal with no electronic devices or distractions. Just enjoy each other’s company without judgment. In addition to Family Night, anytime my husband and I get the opportunity, considering our children are adults now, we try and take the time to either go pick up a  ingredients and prepare a meal for the kiddos, pick up ice cream stuff, go to the movies, karaoke, have a few drinks,  play mini golf,  play at the race track, watch a Hooks game, go to a theme park, or maybe even plan a small gathering with them like a barbecue at the house or card night. We make an extra attempt to do anything that we can just to get the chance to spend time together. Because to me my children are a blessing and I love them and want to be able to spend as much time as I possibly can with them because they are my main reason for living. Considering my children are all adults now and have busy schedules it is awesome and makes us feel grateful that they still take time out to share those moments with us. Our daughter takes the time in hers and her husband’s busy schedule to come to town and visit us quiet often as well as we go and visit them as often as we are able to.

 I extend this family not to just my immediate family but to my parents, siblings, nieces, nephews, cousins, children, and grandchildren included. When we have social gatherings we try and include as many of them as we can when we can. Sometimes we all get together for breakfast at a convenient location near all of us, so we can all gather and share some laughs and enjoy spending time together. We would do it more often but each of us have our own families and lives thus preoccupying our time elsewhere. Everyone is busy these days so the time we do get together is precious. 

 I always enjoy spending time with the family as long as there is joy and laughter. Just wish that we could do some of the activities we used to do like playing cards, going to the beach, and sitting around for no other reason but just to spend time together. We have had some barbecues not too long ago, but recently time has been slipping away it seems. We will have to work on that.

 I feel this is what family is supposed to do, enjoy spending time together, helping each other in need (within reason), bonding, laughing, and having a great time just hanging out. I feel if more families spent less time taking for granted the kindness of others, spent more time taking responsibility for their own actions, less time judging each other, and more time loving each other everyone would get along with much more ease. Selfishness should never come between family members, and children should cherish their parents respecting them as should the parents return the favor, and never refrain or deny a parent  the chance to bond with their other children. There should not be barriers between children and parents and vise versa.

 Sometimes we just need to stop and see what’s right in front of us before it’s too late. Use your time wisely my friends and enjoy your children because there are no guarantees in life and we do not know what tomorrow will bring or take away till it does.

Copyright © 2015 by Josephine Rojas. All rights reserved.

Spellchecker/ Auto-Correct Laughs

redrose66 / June 12, 2015 / Just for Laughs

Caution: May not be suitable for children under 13 years of age Rated PG-13

Have you ever had your spellchecker on and were in a hurry to sent a text or message and forgot to take that second look and do a quick proof read over what you wrote prior to pushing that “send message” button? Yeah, me too, I’m assuming that I’m not the only one flawed.

For instance just today I was messaging my niece and was telling her the reason I didn’t get back with her yesterday, okay? So I this is the message I sent::

Me: “spent the day with my Grandview yesterday”.

What I meant was “spent the day with my grandkids yesterday”.  But I corrected it promptly because I did a quick check just as I hit the send button, not giving her a chance to respond to my grammatical error.

Here’s one from a couple of days ago between my husband and me:

Me: “I was going to talk to Lettuce again…”

My husband: “ok?”

Me: “I was going to talk to **Letty again. That silly spellchecker’s a stinker. It sneaks up on you like a serpent, you know what I mean?”

Now I usually put two asterisk marks before my corection like this:  **correction just like that so they can see that I’m making a correction. And yes, *FYI: I intentionally misspelled the word “correction” to make my point in case someone was wondering.

Spellchecker is pretty funny sometimes, but frequently it can be annoying. Like when it misplaces an intended innocent word for a naughty word or offensive word. That’s happened to me before but I can’t recall any specifics at this time but I did find some online that had other people frustrated. 

 This is about a couple trying to understand each other:

Person A: “Can you get pregnant before you come over today?”

Person B: “what”

Person A: “OH My GOD. I meant to ask if you could get my Pringles at the grocery store.”

Person A: “Pringles…the chips…NOT pregnant…gahhhh”

Person B: “*omg ahh hahahahaha”

 And another one: This is lovers having a passionate goodnight:

Person A: “Love you Babe! Goodnight!”

Person B: “My love for you is strong I would buy you a casket if I could!”

Person B: “castle. I promise I meant castle.”

Person B: “autocorrect why do you have to ruin me so?”

Person B: “Emily?”

Person B: “Hello?” 

This can be taken different ways:

Person A: “D I caught some squirts!”

Person B: “….That’s nice I guess”

Person A: “Yea, you want one?”

Person B: “Ummmm, no thanks. You can keep ‘em.”

Person A: “You sure?” They’re the flying ones.”

Person B: “…Flying squirts?! Why would I want that?!”

Person A: “SQUIRRELS”

Person B: “Bahahahaha! I thought you were sick or something.* LOL”

Caution: These are more graphic then the prior ones. PG-13 is advised.

This is just a meal deal, breaker that is:

Person A: “Chicken Vaginas sounds good for dinner tonight”

Person B: “No, not really” “and …*ROFL *btw”

Person A: “? What would you rather have?”

Person A: “*omg, hahahaha!  Chicken fajitas.* wtf, phone!

Person B: “Definitely not chicken vaginas.”

Person B: “Oh … that sounds much better :p”

 Here’s another: This is a boss and employee having a conversation.

Da Boss: “Can you come in today for just a few hours? Everyone called in today.

Employee: “Maybe in about an hour or so. I gotta finish my cocaine then masturbate everything and shower”.

Da Boss: “I’m not sure what to say to that”

Employee: “COOKING not cocaine and PACK UP not masturbate. Autocorrect sucks!” 

Here’s a couple more just for laughs. It was intentionally innocent I suspect:

Person A: “I hate when people don’t have control over their pussy! It seriously slobbered all over me. I hate that smell, and now I’m all sticky.”

Person A:  “PUPPIES!!!”

Person A: *OMG puppies!

Person B: “I am laughing so hard right now!!”

Person A: “So not cool”

 This one is something that happens when you catch the auto-correct and try and remedy the situation immediately but the auto-correct wins in the end.

Person A: “Can you pick me up some more boobsicles”

Person A: “No. I meant boobsicles”

Person A: “boobsicles”

Person A: “GOD DONKEY”

Person B: “so that’s 3 orders of boobsicles and one holy donkey. Anything else? 

Person A: “no”

 This was one that caught me off guard and I just could not help but bust up in laughter. It hit close to home and reminded me of someone from my past. But that’s a story for another time. Here goes: 

Person A: “What’s up?”

Person B: “Not much. I’ve just been sucking penis all day”

Person A: “That’s good for you…”

Person B: “oh dear god shucking penis”

Person B: “PENIS”

Person B: “peanuts!!!”

Person B: “piece of shirt phone”

 This one is a mom and her child’s conversation. Don’t shoot the messenger but this made me laugh.

Mom: “Dan and I are going out. Dinner is in the microwave”

Child: “awesome! You’re the best! Where you heading?”

Mom: “he’s going to show me his cock!!! im supper excited!!”

Child: “WTF mom ewwwww why would you say that?”

Mom: “OMG!!! His “COCK” ”

Child: “yeah got it mom thanks”

Mom: “stupid phone D O C K! where he keeps his boat!”

Child: “yeah ok”

 This one is relatives talking about their grandmother. Poor grandma. Glad she’s okay though.

Person A: “Great news- Grandma is homosexual!”

Person B: “Okay?”

Person A: “Homo hot lips”

Person A: “Hot tulips”

Person A: “I am getting fisted now”

Person A: “Frustrated”

Person A: “Grandma is h o m e”

Person A: “from h o s p I t a l”

Person B: “Hahaha homo hot lips!!??

Well I hope you enjoyed these as much as I did! Have a great Day! Till Next Time!

 Footnotes: *omg= oh my gosh/god    *wtf= what the fu_ _    *ROFL= roll on floor

                                         *btw= by the way   LOL= laugh out loud FYI= For Your Information

Copyright © 2015 by Josephine Rojas. All rights reserved.

What Is “Love” ?

redrose66 / June 9, 2015 / Poems

Love is Kindness 

Love is Sweet 

Love is Priceless 

Love is Deep 

Love is Righteous 

Love is GOD 

Love is Jesus 

Love is to Adhere 

Love is Honest 

Love is Tears 

Love is Agape 

Love is without Escape 

Love is Sincere 

Love is Happiness 

Love is Dear 

Love is Children 

Love is Laughter 

Love is Forever After!

 

Copyright © 2015 by Josephine Rojas. All rights reserved.

Aunties

redrose66 / May 31, 2015 / True Life Event

 Aunties are the people that the nieces and nephews feel they can come to when they need nonjudgmental honest sound advice without repercussions, secrets that will be kept private, an open minded thought as well as an open heart, thoughts of wisdom, a place to hide or get away from for a short spell, an open door policy with (NSA) no strings attached, an occasional shoulder to cry on, or even for just a friend to bend an ear.